First Day

First day of school is done! Today was only registration and information but I find that those days can be the toughest. It’s so many new impressions and I’m always nervous on the first day so there’s a lot of extra tension too. Overall I like first days, I mean there are endless possibilities on a first day right? You just don’t know til you get there and I find that exciting! And the people! That’s probably the best and the scariest thing. These are the people you’re going to spend (in my case) the next two years with.  I always try to be open and put my best foot forward. The first impression isn’t everything but you definitely shouldn’t ignore it either.  And since you’re gonna spend a lot of time with these people they will get to know you eventually so you can’t just fake it the first day. I think you have to be as transparent as you can and really let yourself shine through, and that’s not necessarily an easy thing to do. Let’s hope I’ve done everything I’ve just said because now the fun (and hard) part begins. First class is on Monday…

Now I’ve changed to something comfy (read reebok) and will go visit my dad. It will be a Friday night well spent!

Lazy vs Ambitious

I’ve been thinking… This week it’s back to school for me again. This year I am starting a new master program at KTH in Stockholm. I say new because last fall I started a master at SU and well, I can only describe that as a fiasco. This year I am doing a program in the Economics of Innovation and Growth and yeah, it probably is as nerdy as it sounds.  Good thing I am a nerd and very excited. I even looked up the literature list for my first courses and started reading in advance.

So, whats the problem? Well, the problem is that I somehow have the ability to be thoroughly lazy and incredible ambitious at the same time.  As a result, I got the book but it is so hard for me to actually sit down and read it. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve read about a third but my ambitious self expected the whole book to be done by now. It really bothers me that I have the ability to, completely guilt free, do absolutely nothing for hours and at the same time want to excel at a Hermione Granger level.

I think for me it’s about mental preparation. I can’t just decide to do something and then focus on that task until it’s done, I don’t have that kind of self discipline. I need to take time to convince myself of why I should do something and why it will be worth it in the end.

Right, so now I will try to take my own advice and convince myself to sit down and read for a while. I might be excited to know everything about Advanced Microeconomic Theory, but it is quite a tedious read as you can imagine. Wish me luck!